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First of all I am missing my mobilian friends, as well as, my friends from texas alot...
Secondly I have realized that its true people change once you leave college, and it is harder to stay in contact with people once you leave a place... what I don't get is if you have a face book or any social networking device why won't you use it to keep in touch with people you care about... or maybe thats the point... the reason why you dont keep in touch is because in all actuality you don't care. At all to be exact.
Since I have been married I have been able to think back the past year even the past couple months, and ask myself where did all my friends run off too? It's not I who has jumped off the face of the earth its them. and though I have tried to connect it doesn't matter.
Maybe I am selfish... or maybe I am hurt and disappointed. When i see weddings and pictures of weddings that I wish I could be at I look and see friends that I invited thinking they would be there, and nothing... not even a sorry I couldn't have been there or even a congrats.
I took money and time and effort to invite you ... have some decency seriously... how hard is it to say I WON'T be there so I can i wouldn't have had hopes of seeing you guys. For those who came I appreciated it more than you will ever know... it means the world to me that you came. For those who told me before and after that you couldn't go thank you I appreciate the fact that you told me. It means the world to me that you would show that you care. But for those who didn't respond and gave me your addresses ... I know where you stand. so thanks.
sorry enough of that, just was hurt thats all :/ hope yall have a good night
As of RIGHT now
People have been asking me what married life is like lately OH BTW i am married for anyone that was wondering if that would ever happen or not... WELL it did :) and lets just say its been an adventure since then. Since I said "I do" this is what Ive done.
I have been CLEAN yep thats right I have been clean crazy huh? I guess I have a new appreciation to a clean humble abode. It gives a sense of self respect having a clean home.
I have been cooking more. YES and it has turned out to be really yummy. I have enjoyed cooking... kinda gives me a sense of relaxation.... though I am not confident yet but I have enjoyed it ... matt likes it too
I have taken care of financial things... and I have been a Hoss at it :) no one wants to mess with me
I have shot a gun! which was soooo much fun! and scary! I like the cowboy rifle ... I think i may get one sometime soon :)
I have made this apartment a home... now now I need more things but i love my apartment... its very quaint and cozy.
I have found a nice church to go to.. I like mars hill alot Mark driscoll is the pastor and he is very good at what he does.
I have made plans to mark things off my bucketlist!! Hot air balloon... skydiving... yep thats what I am going too and I CANT WAIT.
All in all married life has been fun... and sometimes lonely mainly cause matt goes to work all day and I am at home most of the time... Yeah yeah you will probably tell me to get a job... OK LET ME GET RIGHT ON THAT :P I have been looking for a job... now I may not have been trying EXTREMELY hard but I have put effort towards it. I know I can't be picky but I still want to enjoy what i do.
If I could work anywhere I would work at a record label. I wouldnt mind starting at the bottom... stuffing envelopes or something... just to be in a place that focuses on what I love the most would be such a neat experience. But what do I have to offer? I don't know .
I have realized I need to get better at selling myself... sheesh i have been in such a funk that I have lost a bit of self confidence... no one likes a blah person .... people want to see life, enthusiasm, creativeness, and a new way of thinking. this funk i have been in needs to seriously go away... its like my scribbles have turned into straight lines and are about to burst at the seams.... WELL that is all i can think about right now....
I have also realized I NEED PEOPLE... this apartment stuff is getting old.... you can only get so excited cleaning and cooking for so long until it gets old..... unfortunately I know maybe 3 people here.... one has a baby, the other one has a new baby and a 2 year old girl and one lives about 45 mins away... ughhhhh so far.... I MISS THE COLLEGE ASPECT OF PEOPLE. its dull and kinda zaps me of energy.... but that will all change soon enough :) hopefully :( anyways that is all for today you guys have a good one :)
