Ughhhh

Ughhhhhhhhh


I am beginning to get SICK ugh. SLOWLY i am beginning to get sick which is even worse. Like I understand hey of course I am going to be sick, but sickness why do you have to be so lame and come SO SO SO SLOW.... very lame.


ANYWAYS things are looking up it seems like. Things are falling into place, work is going great, I've gotten to see a TON of things, and basically I am just following what I believe God is showing me, and telling me where to go.

I feel like things aren't sinking in. Like I have only about 2 months left, in a country I may never see again, people I may never see again, and then it's back into the real world. Back into a routine. routine is a bittersweet word. Yes I like having a routine but at the same time I hate having one. Have I changed since I've been here?


I don't know, I am still trying to figure that out. If I have, I don't know what it is, and i don't know how to know. I guess it will just be in the reaction of others. I have been so thankful for the friends and family that has supported this journey, and has helped me tremendously. So thank you everyone :)

Well I am going to lie down before I go to team fellowship... ughhhhhhhh stupid sickness >:/ lol

Brokenness

Even when we are broken, we can be used in amazing ways. It just depends on what way you look at things. Brokenness is that even a word? I have no idea. I tend to be quite clumsy, and tend to break lots of things. FOR EXAMPLE... the washing machine TOTALLY not my fault but it's broken. But we all have the times where either we feel broken or we are the ones who are breaking something. SOMETIMES its relieving to break things as in glass bottles or clay pots. I remember at school last year, there was a point where both me and Craig were extremely stress and you know what we did? We went out side and just Broke things. I use to also do that when I worked at Bahama Bucks... After a long day of work i would get freshly made blocks of ice and just Toss it in the air and it would shatter. It was exhilarating. As exhilarating as somethings maybe. Sometimes it is not fun to break things. Sometimes it hurts you in the process of the breaking. Those are not the fun times. Those are the times I dread. But you know what...

Breaking can sometimes be good...

Breaking out into the new world...
Breaking old habits.....
Breaking new habits....
USING YOUR BREAKS (just not when its extremely wet)....
Break dancing...
Breaking

what do you define it as?
God has been breaking me down to size... allowing me to be humbled at the sight of his work... and been showing me directions that seem to be what is set for me. Some may not agree with my decisions... but ultimately it's not their decisions to make. It's the Lord's and mines. You wanna see my heart? It's breaking....but in a good way. Is your's doing the same...


Goodnight blogger world until next time