Well Hello Past

Out of no where I starting listening to Daphne Loves Derby again. I have been listening to their station on Pandora and you know what that has done? It has made me think about highschool.

ALL of a sudden floods of memories wonderful memories swormed through my mind. No one but me and my past knows the things I captured in my little mind of mine. It kinda reminds me of "Elizabeth Town" when the girl takes a fake snapshot of the moment she is in like she is going to make a scrap book or something. It seems like I've done that through the years, and for some reason Music has always played a part in the memories that are reocurring.

I look at the past, and see who I was.... and look at myself now and all I can say is WOW. So much change, adventure, craziness has happened since then. I look back at a girl that was just trying to figure herself out, taken by the friendships, loving life.... And look at a woman that is building friendships, going in all directions, and growing up. But its always fun to look at the past. Daphne loves derby was one of my first bands that I actually loved. First concert to go to without riding with my parents, out of town, and with friends. NOW race the sun was the first concert I ever went to but that was only in abilene. Daphne Loves Derby was a new leaf for me. It was like I had my first step in independence. I loved it. The friendships that I began to develope, the adventures I took from then on out would change my world forever.

Yes I miss highschool.... I said it... I miss the simplicity of a highschoolers life.... I miss the friends I once had... I miss the music.... BUT I love where I am at.

The past will not take you anywhere but hold you back. Look at the present live your life to your fullest, and push for the future. Soon I will be having children and they will get to experience the life I had. All I can say is I am excited for what is to come and what the Lord has in store for this season of my life. Yes I miss things, but I love this life I have now. We always search for someone or something to suffice for our happiness... And I don't have to. I have my other half. :) I have the Lord. And I am happy.

I hope you all have a blessed day. Enjoy the sun/ or the rain/ and experience life. Because 5 years will blow by before you know it and you will be thinking about the past and reminiscing. SOOOOO tahtahfornow! :)

Halt

HALT WHO GOES THERE?!

Anytime I think about the word halt, I think about a policeman stopping you, or a guard in the medieval times when you are comingup to the gate to talk to a king, OR EVEN red light green light. You know the game.

All in all its a stopping point, sometimes you can't control it, it just happens.

Over the past couple months since I've been married I have been looking for jobs. NOW have I really been looking for jobs?

Well I put it into high gear since July. Now I know thats not a long time to be looking for jobs. BUT for me it has.

And in the midst of applying and applying and applying and applying I have still yet have found a job. I have applied soooooooooo many places and it just seems I am TO qualifed or do not have enough experience.

DISCOURAGING MUCH? but after talking to a friend and some people at church they put it into perspective. Maybe God doesn't want me to work and get paid maybe He wants me to do volunteer work. Or maybe I am suppose to be a wife. I never got to spend time with matt before we got married, maybe God is giving me an opportunity to get to know Matt better? Who knows

ALL I KNOW is that my life is at a halt at the moment. And though many people might like sitting idle relaxing, watching tv, working out. I DO NOT. well I do but i like people. I like hearing from people. Seeing people. Listening to people. I NEED PEOPLE. lol so until I get to see people I am just going to see where God takes me. Apply for more jobs, get turned down or not even hear back, and keep pressing forward. In the mean time I will do what a wife is to do even though my husband will not be here, and get invovled with church and organizations that need my help :)

To make Gods kindom a little brighter, a little more funny, a little more random.... that is what I am here to do :)

Adventure I am waiting ;)

ok that is all yall have a great day! (ps. people make fun of me for saying yall but I get more joy in hearing people from the north begin to say yall even more!) hehehe