Goodbye.

Why is it so hard to say goodbye? Is it because the thought in our mind, we think we will never get to see that person again? Is it because, we don't know whether our ties were mended before now? Or is it because we just don't know what to say, or don't want to hurt the other person?




Little do we know... Goodbyes can be good

Goodbyes can be refreshing

Goodbyes can be exactly what the Lord wants from us.

Within the past few days, I have had to say goodbyes. Since I have been in Greece, I have met some incredible people. Tonight is the night I say goodbye to my team, as a whole. This is our last Christmas party. And after this it will be time for me to pack up and head back to America.
I realized I don't like saying Goodbye. It sounds so final. How about "See you soon!" or "See you around". Maybe I don't like the word Goodbye, because I was taught it to be negative. As though you will never get another chance to say hello again.

Well that is no good!

Tuesday was hard... because in a way, it was final. I had to say goodbye to some of the most amazing Afghan Women, and children for the last time. The reason it is final, is because you never know if these people will stay or leave. So if I do decide to come back, I might not see them again :(. But that is ok. Because for one moment in time, we were able to share something special. A bond. That will forever be with me. And though I have to say goodbye to the team, and I am bad at keeping in touch I will do everything in my power to see how they are doing and even possibly make a visit every once in awhile to this little place I called home for 3 months.

Goodbye means Hello to something new. A new adventure. So rather than keeping that negative thought with the word Goodbye, I will think of it as another Hello nice to meet you.

Goodbye Greece in 2 days. Hello to my next adventure. ;)

Change

Change is coming very very soon.

I leave Greece in about 1 week from today, and then crazy planning will come with that. CRAZY PLANNING.

Change....

Why are we afraid of that word? I mean I know I am at times, but it also can mean a new adventure, a new way of thinking, a new perspective in life.

Change.

I think Change is a good thing.

What do you think?

I mean sometimes it is hard, because in the midst of Change we have to say goodbye, we have to hurt people, and usually it is a cause of something happening.

Change could also be neither. It could mean a transition in someones life, and it has to happen.

You can't try to hold back from Change. Why? Because Change is happening all the time, all around us. In physical things and emotional things, and sometimes even mental things and spiritual things.

Will you embrace Change when it arrives in your world, or will you try to hide? Ultimately it is up to you.

But lets just say Change is coming whether you like it or not

Oh Rome How I'll miss you :(

Exploring the streets of Rome, embracing the adventure, not having a care in the world, what more can you ask for. At first I was nervous everyone said,"Callie you have to be careful it is soooooo dangerous." and really it terrified me, but once I walked around, had a map saw the things i have always wanted to see for a brief moment, everything about this place made me want more. I guess it is true it makes you want to fall in love. There is such a unique feeling to everything about this place. I wish it could have been longer than two days though. Believe me when I say, I will see the world even if it is the last thing I do. Don't tell anyone this but (I like Rome more than Greece :X shhhhhhh you promise.) Well this is from my phone and Jessie is summoning me so till next time arivedochi.

P.s. People may say that Rome is dirty, full of crime, and is ugly... But compared to greece it is a beauty.

Ughhhh

Ughhhhhhhhh


I am beginning to get SICK ugh. SLOWLY i am beginning to get sick which is even worse. Like I understand hey of course I am going to be sick, but sickness why do you have to be so lame and come SO SO SO SLOW.... very lame.


ANYWAYS things are looking up it seems like. Things are falling into place, work is going great, I've gotten to see a TON of things, and basically I am just following what I believe God is showing me, and telling me where to go.

I feel like things aren't sinking in. Like I have only about 2 months left, in a country I may never see again, people I may never see again, and then it's back into the real world. Back into a routine. routine is a bittersweet word. Yes I like having a routine but at the same time I hate having one. Have I changed since I've been here?


I don't know, I am still trying to figure that out. If I have, I don't know what it is, and i don't know how to know. I guess it will just be in the reaction of others. I have been so thankful for the friends and family that has supported this journey, and has helped me tremendously. So thank you everyone :)

Well I am going to lie down before I go to team fellowship... ughhhhhhhh stupid sickness >:/ lol

Brokenness

Even when we are broken, we can be used in amazing ways. It just depends on what way you look at things. Brokenness is that even a word? I have no idea. I tend to be quite clumsy, and tend to break lots of things. FOR EXAMPLE... the washing machine TOTALLY not my fault but it's broken. But we all have the times where either we feel broken or we are the ones who are breaking something. SOMETIMES its relieving to break things as in glass bottles or clay pots. I remember at school last year, there was a point where both me and Craig were extremely stress and you know what we did? We went out side and just Broke things. I use to also do that when I worked at Bahama Bucks... After a long day of work i would get freshly made blocks of ice and just Toss it in the air and it would shatter. It was exhilarating. As exhilarating as somethings maybe. Sometimes it is not fun to break things. Sometimes it hurts you in the process of the breaking. Those are not the fun times. Those are the times I dread. But you know what...

Breaking can sometimes be good...

Breaking out into the new world...
Breaking old habits.....
Breaking new habits....
USING YOUR BREAKS (just not when its extremely wet)....
Break dancing...
Breaking

what do you define it as?
God has been breaking me down to size... allowing me to be humbled at the sight of his work... and been showing me directions that seem to be what is set for me. Some may not agree with my decisions... but ultimately it's not their decisions to make. It's the Lord's and mines. You wanna see my heart? It's breaking....but in a good way. Is your's doing the same...


Goodnight blogger world until next time

So

I have been so mean to you blog, I haven't wrote on you in so long.... I know you have missed me, and it's not like I am doing it on purpose!!! I promise!! it's just.... welll here is the thing I have another blog, yes yes I know it makes you sad, but this is for the mission trip. I PROMISE i am not forgetting about you, why? Because you are my thoughts, my random thoughts, the other is about my day. ANYWAYS enough of the apology .... if I do not talk to you for a while its because I am super busy, don't have internet, or i am updating the other... I love you I promise I do blog, but things happen... please don't hate me


Ok enough of talking to the blog. So since I have been in Greece, I have had really ups and really downs. I have been here 2 weeks or a little more than that and have only work 3 times, not my fault or the teams, the rest of the team had to go on a retreat that was all meetings and not fun stuff, soooo me my roomie jessie and roomie tiffany went to Santorini and Mykonos. It was great don't get me wrong, but it made me feel like I didn't deserve it. I really didn't I also really didn't want to go because of the adventure. My thing is, yes traveling is great, but that is not why I am here, I am here because I am doing work, I am doing what God is calling me to do. And when I am traveling, taking pictures, I feel like I am not here for the right reasons. I feel like why am I even here. Don't get me wrong, when I am in the midst of the work I know why I am exactly here. I am here to love these people. I am here to learn from them. I am here to serve God. I know I am just starting out, and it will get better, but it just has been hard... It makes me miss home, miss the people I am use to, and makes me not want to go on the adventure ( GASP!) did i just say that? SHH callie! this is a chance of a lifetime! Enjoy it, embrace it and it will get easier I promise... WELL that is all from me today until next time :)

Hello From ATHENS!

Goodmorning or night all :) I am officially in athens and have been for the past 3 days. Let me tell you this is a completely different feel. Today will be the first day I get to go to the ARC (which is Athens Refugee Center) I am super excited. You know what? I am starting to like this place. At first I thought omgosh what did I get myself into. But after seeing things it has made me happy.... yes I look like a tourist but I am a happy tourist taking pictures and you know what Greeks you can just deal hahah Well I am off if I dont get on here as much check out my mission blog http://callie-mission-greece-2010.blogspot.com/ I am trying to update that one everyday! well tahtahfor now :)